previously i had a fake feeling that graphic design is art and i continued practicing on making art out of digital media i felt like i had a global duty to fill those streets and mags and other media with beautiful (non commercial designs) " i felt like i'm doing the biggest and hardest thing "
but for now when i began working in the field i felt like i'm doing nothing but fulfilling foolish client needs which i really think it's what will close their places "those foolish miserable needs" and this is what really annoy me and make me feel so small and yet failing in the same purpose " in myself eye ".
in the same time i met so much designers in my field which i used to respect so much who encouraged me and felt I'm so much lame for thinking like that because this is the market and this is what they call professionalism
now i feel confused and i'm trying to leave what i'm doing because it's not what i was trying to achieve because my boss loves to see foolish designs and doesn't even try to convince clients saying that "this is what he pays for"
soon i will begin freelancing or move on and see which clients will i work with , i already loved working with local hotels they are friendly and accepting good new designs and they can pay what it takes to bring a new good print to life.